星期三 | 十月 24, 2007

HappyEnding...

  This is the 8th week in my jounior semester,that  also means I and Yu have been to Ec for 7 times,but I have not met him once.In the summer vacation I were thought I have forgoten him throuoghly,however the first time we went to EC,I see I have not,he is so deep in my heart,mabybe the feelings is beyond my description,that is ture,he is the most charming boy I have met,perhaps I cannot take him away from my heart for a time...
  Recently I like a song very much,that is the Trough the rain.Mariah Carey - Through The Rain

When you get caught in the rain
With no where to run
When you're distraught and in pain
Without anyone
When you keep crying out to be saved
But nobody comes and you feel so far away
That you just can't find your way home
You can get there alone
It's okay, what you say is
I can make it through the rain
I can stand up once again on my own
And I know that I'm strong enough to mend

  I like the liyic,itis really very like my station now,I want to hold my faith tight,but sometimes I cannot because of u,I want to meet u ,want to stay wtih u ,want to study together with u ,want to have dinner with u....
  I can not tell my feelings to others,I believe no one will  trust me,even myself cannot believe I am a girl like this,and I did wish some would share my feeling,and the especial one is you.
  Maybe you are not here now,maybe you will never seen my composition,maybe you even do not know that in this world there exist a girl miss you so much now,you do not me,yet perhaps you even cannot remember me, but I still want to tell u Ich liebe Dich...........
   I wish someday we would meet abroad,time changes,we do not know each other ,we fall in love at a total new enviroment...
   That is depends....the God....
   This is the end for my first blog,I think I should more realitly,he has gone ,far away,no contact,no hope......
   Yes,this is my first love,a crazy inner love,nobody knows,and this is the end,
   THIS is my happy ending....
   Come on !
   All things will be better!
   
 

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剩下的只有奋斗!

  很长一段时间我都不知道我自己的目标是什么,我将来要干什么,也许迷茫的前两年现在终于可以结束了,因为我觉得我已经想得很明白了.
  我总是不想呆在武汉,因为这里的气候让我有点受不了,我从高中的时候就想离开我的故乡去别的地方闯一闯了,只是当时没有勇气什么事情都自己做主,选择了留在武汉,上了一所2类大学.如果...我没有那么胆小,自己决定,也许我的理想现在也在向我靠近了...
  我很想做一个外交官,可是我们学校不在外交部选材的范围内...后悔也是没有用的...
  所以现在我决定了,因为只有考研能把我带走了,我想去广州,去暨南大学,新闻与传播学院...
  也许中途我会去考考公务员,去找找工作,去看看留学的资讯,但考研是我不变的目标......
  我想我会喜欢那里,会喜欢暨南...
  加油李杨,你会成功!
  明年的现在你仍然在奋斗,可后年,你将是一个全新的自信的李杨
!

  Come on!Dreams will come true:)
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我的抱怨...

星期一 | 四月 23, 2007

一张免费的奥运会的门票...

今天上传播学的课的时候,我们的老师给我们带来了一个好消息,那就是湖北电视台向我们学校要十个人一起去参加08年的奥运会报道,可是这对我们班的女生来说却是一个天大的坏消息,因为,据说只要男生. 我想,面对这样一个大好的机会,没有什么人可以抗拒它的魅力,我很希望我也可以去,哪怕付出代价.而且我以后是希望做记者的. 说实话,老师的这个消息也许会改变我的人生观,世界观,甚至是我的一生.现在我有太多的想法了,我也无法一一把他们说出来,因为我不知道该如何去表达,如何去诠释... 但是我可以肯定的是,这对我而言,绝对不会是一个很小的影响. 最近,我特别怀念布兰妮的一首歌'I AM NOT A GIRL NOT YET A WOMAN' I used to think ,I had the answers to everything. But now I know,That life doesn't always go my way. Feels like I'm caught in the middle,That's when I realize,I'm not a girl,Not yet a woman. All I need is time,A moment that is mine,While I'm in between,I'm not a girl. There is no need to protect me, It's time that I Learned to face up to this on my own. I've seen so much more than you know now,So don't tell me to shut my eyes if you look at me closely.You will see that in my eyes. This girl will always find her way I'm not a girl don't tell me what to believe. Not yet a woman I'm just tryin' to find the woman in me. 也许每一个女生都希望自己变成一个有主见,有魅力,独立的,不需要男生保护的女人,呵呵,我也不会例外,当我面对生活中的一切好事与坏事的时候,我都希望自己可以处理的更好一些. 所以我要时刻记住INDEPENDENCE!THEN YOU WILL DO BETTER! 如果说,我现在在这里说我一定要怎样怎样,我想对我而言并不会起太大的作用的,因为我不是一个说到就可以做到的人,但是如果我的心理有了这个信念,我想我是不会轻易的去CHANGE IT的! 人都是一个独立的个体,这是这一个礼拜里两个人先后告诉我的,我是一个个体,我要走我自己的路! COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON! COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON!COME ON! 希望以后我看到这篇文章的时候不要后悔,希望自己可以做一个自己想象中的女生,希望大家一切都顺利!
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星期五 | 四月 20, 2007

A Poem...

     Dream........

I remember a wonderful moment,

as before my eyes you appeared,

Like a vision ,fleeting, momentary,

Like a spirit of the purest beauty.

I the torture of hopeless melancholy,

In the bustle of the world's noisy hours,

That vioce rang out so tenderly,

I dreamed of that handsome face of yours.

The times flew quicklu .The storm'blast,

Scattered the dreams of former times,

And forgot of your tender voice,

And  the features of your heavenly face,

In remoteness,in gloomy isolation,

My  days dragged quietly,nothing was new.

No godlike face,no inspiration,

No tears,no life,no love,no you.

Then to my soul an awaken came,

And there again your face appeared,

Like a vision,fleeting,momentary,

Like a spirit of the purest beauty.

And my heart beat with a rapture new,

And for its sake arose again,

A godlike face,an inspiration,

And life,and tears,and love,and you.

                                                                 Whenever I read this poem,I feel I want to cry... ...

                             

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星期一 | 四月 16, 2007

暗恋日记(向左走,向右走的我们...)

    冬天的风总会让我觉得格外的舒服,也许我天生就是喜欢那种冰冰凉的感觉吧。

    那是一个很晴朗的星期四,我的心情很好,晚上突发奇想的和一个朋友(鱼姐)一起去了EC,这是我第一次去那里,他们说ENGLISH CORNER(EC)是一个提高英语的不错的地方.它在我们学校斜对面的一所重点大学里.

    那天晚上有点冷,去的人不是很多.不过这样也好,人与人之间的距离小了很多,可以更加放得开一点和别人谈天说地了:)那里的环境很好,是在一个小广场上,两边都种满了树,还有两排矮灯和路灯交错着在路的两旁,旁边还给布置上了几把很有情调的椅子... ...我们去的时候天已经很黑了,树叶落满了地,昏暗的灯光让我们感觉到了一丝浪漫的气息... ...我很喜欢这种画面,也许是因为它和我有点自卑的心理很吻合... ...

    我们是第一次去,难免会有些害怕,我很怯懦的和一个男生"HI!"了一声,没想到他却是一个十分开朗的男生(HUMOR BOY),用英语来形容他呢,一个单词'EASY GOING '!我想第一次能这样大方的说英语也多亏他了,呵呵!陆陆续续的,有好几个人加入了我们的聊天中.对于其他人我的记忆真的不是很清晰了,但是有一个人我却记得十分清楚... ...

   当我们几个人聊得正HIGH的时候,一个让我有些意外的男生站在了我的旁边,并且很有礼貌的问了一句'CAN I JOIN YOU?'这突如其来的问题,让我不知道如何回答是好.我用很小的声音回答了一句'OF COURSE!' 这也许是那天我和他说过的唯一的一句话了.他说起英语来真的好厉害啊,当时我对他的感觉除了崇拜还是崇拜,也许至今都是这样吧,呵呵.

   用一个英语单词来形容他,那也许就是CHARMING了.MAYBE当时我就已经喜欢上了他,只是那时候我还不知道罢了.

   过了又一个孤单的圣诞节,我很希望能有人和我一起跨越新年的那一刻,呵呵,可是仍然是没有:(

   元旦的前一个星期5,我和鱼姐去了EC,我们又遇见了HOUMOR BOY ,我们站在广场最旁边的那个灯柱下聊了起来,没想到他也来了,当时觉得和他们真的好有缘分啊(呵呵,后来发现其实他们每次都去的),这样我们四个人开始了我们的英语聊天,这次的聊天让我们对彼此又有了进一步的了解,特别是这个EASYGOING 的HUMOR BOY.而对于他......

   怎么来描绘他呢?其实以我现在的心理来说我是不想去刻意回忆的,可是我想这一定是一段会让我快乐的回忆,呵呵.他不高,这完全打破了我对身高的限制;他也不白,也不是我心里所想象的白马王子,但是他对我就是有一种无法言喻的吸引力,在我眼里他是那么帅,那么从容,那么那么好!!!!当我了解到他是一所重点大学的学生,他的理想是考上美国TOP10的大学时.他仿佛就是一个神话TO ME!而且我发觉他每次说话的时候眼中总会闪烁着光芒,吸引着我,让我总是控制不住自己直愣愣得看着他的眼睛,有时候我发现他都被我看得都有点不好意思了,呵呵...也许就是在这个时候我是真的喜欢上了他,因为我发现我看他的眼神都和看别人的不一样,我敢和HUMOR BOY畅所欲言,而我除了看他,我一句话都不敢和他说......在我心里唯一期待的也许就是下次还能遇见他... ...也许这就是我一直期待的一箭钟情吧......那天我们就以一句简单的DOOD BYE 结束了我们的"DETING"......

   当时的心情用金海心的一首歌来部分诠释,我觉得还蛮恰当的;

   整晚胡思乱想,夜色真好,让我睡不着,为何你总是想要逃,相思若好不了,只能怪我找不到解药,你从未给过我爱的讯号,糟糕我陷得比你早,你爱的比我少,注定要受煎熬,不好优雅都不见了,不安分的心跳全世界都听到,别那么骄傲.如何是好,你欠我一个拥抱,而我却一再(的)对你微笑,怎么你还没看见我的好,怎么办才好,你欠我一个拥抱,而我却一再(的)对你微笑,抱着我的苦恼睡着了觉... ...

   也许我是真的一晚上都没有睡着吧.......JUST MAYBE

   也许是因为对他的期待,也许是EC的吸引元旦后的第一个礼拜我们就去了,没有疑问,我又遇见了他,只不过这也许是我最后一次遇见他了... ...而且这一次的相遇有些意外,有些让我不知所措。

   我和鱼姐一边聊天一边往英语角的那边走去,无意之间,我发现朝我们走来的那个人不就是他吗,当时我们已经给他也取了一个代号(TOFEL BOY)!他正在往外面走,手里拿着手机,我想今天他也许不会去了吧,我们没有打招呼,可是我感觉他一定记得我们,他的眼神告诉我的。说实话,我有点失望,因为他的离去... ...

  我们走到英语角,那里有个大叔像在发表演讲一样,好多人围观,我们也凑上去看了看,他们讲的都好好啊!天气很冷,我感觉我的心也跟着凉了,人很少,我讲的也不是很好,我有点郁闷了!我无意识的朝傍边看了看,发现了一个好熟悉的身影就站在我的旁边,MY GOD!他又回来了,就站在了我的旁边!!!我不知所措... ...


 

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